Day 1: So at the end of my first day of being vegetarian, i feel pretty good, i ate fruit and bread for lunch and had a peach after school for a snack, then i had tofu pad Thai for the Thai restaurant down the block from my house, then i had my last peach for dessert. I kind of wanted some chicken or something in the Pad Thai, but i feel rather good not having any.
Day 2: Today was another strong day, i still haven't had any meat even though my brother and dad had grilled chicken, i went out and got myself frozen veggie burgers. They are surprisingly dry, even though i had rice and beans on the side, it still didn't help, it wasn't the same thing as having a normal burger. At this point, meat still seems appetizing, but i don't really want it as much as i used too.
Day 3: Alright, so today was the deciding day, i wasn't vegetarian today, but the interesting thing is that up until dinner i was, and when my mom told me we were having sausage for dinner, i didn't want it. It didn't seem appetizing to me and i didn't want to eat it, and when i did it didn't taste as good as it used to.
Day 4: Another day of vegetarian, and i actually look at meat and i am strangely repulsed, i no longer think of eating meat when i am hungry, and i am actually feeling a lot more relaxed then i normally am. I know it has only been 4 days and one of them i actually ate meat, but the thing is that i don't feel the same way i used to. I don't feel as dependant on meat anymore, today me and Conor went to a Taco Bell and when i went in, i didn't want anything they had there, looking at the big shiny sign, with all the food that looks better then it normally would, i felt my hunger leave me. I no longer wanted to eat there, and instead of that i had a slice of pizza.
So after my brief experiment, I went in with strong doubts that i would be able to make it, and now all i can think of, is what can i eat that doesn't have meat in it. I want certain foods, like Sesame Chicken, but i want it for its texture, not its taste. I don't think i would eat the chicken if it were put in front of me right now. So after only 4 days, i no longer want to eat meat, i feel more relaxed and laid back, and i don't eat nearly as much as i used to. I used to always be hungry, but not so much anymore. The real question is why? It has only been four days and i already feel different then i used to and i feel like i no longer need to eat meat. Is this just a phase or something more. I feel like this actually uncovered more questions then it answered because i no longer know how i feel about the way i eat. I want to be healthy, but i don't know why. I no longer drink soda, i stopped eating white bread, and now meat. For soda it took me almost 8 months for me to not want it anymore, even though i still do sometimes, but meat, only 4 days. I haven't had a craving for any sort of meat in that time, and when i was actually eating it, i didn't want it. My next question is why? What happens if i keep being a vegetarian?
Sam,
ReplyDeleteWhat was particularly interesting to me about this story;
1. You did something that got surprising results
2. You don't know what to think about the experience
3. You don't know how to integrate the experience into your previous identity/lifeways.
Not to be flattering, but you've allowed yourself to be free for a few days. To be free to try something out without clenched knuckles to hold onto a previous worldview/identity/life-practices. Congrats!
One thing you know, going forward, might be that whether you remain an occasional meat-eater, or become a vegetarian, or a usual meat eater - you know that you could change, you're not stuck anymore.
I'm curious what you do with this situation.